wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
today is a happy day! (:
4 DOWN; 1 MORE TO FREEDOM.
and i still have 5 days to study for study genes and society. blah.

was thinking like i wan to study hard for tt paper so tt i probably don need to SU it. but come to tink abt it, there's a line between willingness and ability. (tot of history paper today - Europeans would not and could not colonise Asia without Industrial Revolution). yay i can finalli throw away all my stuffs!
but i tot the tutors and lecturers in history dept are realli cute and friendly >_< !


so, i went to watch ENCHANTED with tina today. hehe i tink it's so super niceeeeeeeee! i love the plot(thou it's those of happily ever afters but i love happily ever afters), the cast, the princessy costumes and dresses, the images and everything! :D
but i guess there's still a wide gap between fairytales and reality.
will they ever come true?

and i went shopping alone after tina left. i tot shopping alone was kind of efficient and productive. thou i didn't buy anything which is good. i still prefer online shopping which is wayyyy cheaper and the clothes are nicer. i tink there's INFLATION in our economy. everything's so exp everywher! ):

and seeing those sec school students hanging out with their frens during the hols probably remind me of those days. seems like they're so far from me now heh.

and i tink i'm so superrrrrr stressed for the past few daes that i couldn't slp at night ):. and guess wad. my M come STRAIGHT after my exams. like once i leave the hall and went to the T, tada! :S i must be reali reali stressed for the past few daes. -___________-"

lastly, YAY there's pasar malam in my place! FOOD FOOD FOOD FOOD I SMELL YOU AND I WAN TO EAT YOU UP.

2 down; 3 more to go.
URGHS i hope thurs faster come soon.
i cant wait to watch Enchanted cos i hrd it's v nice. wheeeeeeeeeee.

hai. i seriously tink i'm kind of stress. -_____-" like couldn't reali get to bed last night lo. i tink i overworked my brain. all the last minute work to be blamed.

was looking thru pictures of my frens and i realised tt christmas deco are up in town. like, i don even noe and i cant reali remb when was the last time i've been to town.
ok ya i remb. it was chiayin's bdae which was almost a month ago.

and, ONLINE SHOPPING IS EVIL EVIL. somebody help me from the devil pleaseeeeeee.
sickening lo. bought my 4th top yest for this month. ok but it was damn nice can. i tink for the whole afternoon and decided i need to buy it since it's nice and cheap.
i cant wait to get my stufffsssss.
teebang was asking me why am i always so broke. i tink online shopping plays a main role! :S

and yay, i am v happy now cos my sis jus told me tt i can lobang her taxi to go to sch on thurs. which means i can leave my hse at 8 instead of 7.10 and can still risk being late and rushy my way.

RAH. math paper tml. i seriously seriously seriously hope i don fail it leh. i mean i tink i wan to do well but maths is jus ARGHS. don even noe why i took it.

Blah. Bye. Boring Blog. -_______-"

i alwaes have this bad habit of emo-ing in the midst of mugging.
like yucksssssssssssss. BURN AWAY THE BOOKS.

neways, was quite emo aft see-ing liy's blog (i don noe but i guess we alwaes have this habit of emo-ing looking at other's blog) haha.
gone were the days of smacking boobs, pulling skirts, poking tummies and laughing like a monster.
i tink i kind of miss jcee and sec school days. like alot alot (i noe i noe u're sick of hearing tt but i just couldn't help it u see).
mayb life in uni would be nice too if everyday's orientation and playing games. but it's not so it isn't nice at all.
don noe why studying is becoming so much of a torture and it seems like all the motivation is gone.
i guess i can NEVER study like the way i did for As ever ever again?

to side track a little, yay i finally get to eat my mua chee today! (all thanks to beloved tina)!
uh i kind of miss my friends a lot recently. like miss them being ard me all the time. i tink i've grown to b SELF SUFFICIENT like i cant reali b borther is there's anyone ard.
like i used to tink eating alone is pathetic. but now i reali don mind eating alone. (but of cos not in sch still mayb)
oh gosh, sign of LONER GOING TO BE.

oh ya and today i told me abt this cc culinary lesson for baking stuffs. kind of feel like joining. and i was telling her abt inflation on the price of flour.
and it sudd hit upon us that we're SUPER AUNTIE. -__________-"
but i love being auntie. it rocks.

uh i cant wait to watch Enchanted next week. there's so many nice movies i wanna watch! >_<

haiyahs i got econs test tml morn @ 9.a.m. ))))))))):
all the breast to me mans............
ok bye/

inefficiency killls............. my eyes and closing upppppppp.
zzzzzzzzzzzz.
i hate the rainy weather cos it made me sleepy.
but actualli, i love it la. i love to hide under my blanket and feel warm and cosy and love to stone.
but, i hate studying.

uhhhhhhhhhhh. I FEEL LIKE EATING TAU HUAY AND MUA CHEEEEEEEEEE.
out of nowhere. but sudd for cravingggggggggg.
I'M HUNGRY AND FAT, but adorable.

hehe. i secretly love it when pple says tt they miss me. HAHA.
but i miss everybody tooo.

last but not least, i'm jealous everybody's exams are ending ealier thn mine.
HATE THEM. ):

RAH.
a series of unfortunate events: today is a bad day. ):

i'm currently in nus central library now and cos i'm too sian so i came here to use the comp and print some notes. hehe.
had a bad start for the day.
wake up in the morning and started feeling quite stressed out of nothing.
my hp have been sent for repair cos it couldn't detect the earpiece and so i had to use my old lor kok mustafa phone and it's alwaes telling me. "mailbox full" all the time cos it's memory space is just pathetic.
and i tink i overestimate my ability too much and am too lazy to check out what to bring so i just carry all my econs notes for jc and the super thick econs txtbook to sch. i almost died carrying that all the way here ok.
feeels like i'm gg to have muscle cramp or sth cos i exert too much strength on carrying notes -__________-"
thn i failed to meet jp on the bus as we've planned cos of some laggy response frm me as usual.
then i was so kan cheong and rushed out of my hse that i didn't bring my jacket here.
so i'm a bit like freezing in the library although i had this layer of fats on me but it's not enuff.
and then, i'm so tired now i feel like sleeeping.

SOBBBBBBBBBBBBBB.
and while i was on the bus just now i started thinking how when u're feeling realli stressed and tired and lil things that didn't go ur way will jus make u wan to cry.
like i remb how i used to cry when i realised i didn't bring my keys and had to sit outside my corridor feeling like such a loser.
1/4 Fish and 3/4 dUCK.
HAHA.

ok enuff of this. i'm gg off to print my notes.
BYE.

sometimes, over the years, i thought tt i've changed so much that it scares me.
but nonetheless, i alwaes thought that it was a change for the better. (mayb i'm wrong. i don noe)
but i tot i've grew a lot and become way stronger and way open to criticisms.
i've become much more willing to talk things out. to sae out how i feel. rather then keeping them to myself.
when i'm sad or angry or anything, i will just tell one of my besties wad happened.
similarly, when i'm happy, i'll share my joy at the same time.

i just hope that pple wont get me wrong when i'm trying to sae out how i feel.
i mean, seriously i didn't mean it when i sound fierce. haha.
and come to think of it (ok this is quite lame), i suddenly tot of what we've learnt in history.
like history shapes the way we are today, now.
just like i am the way i am today due to my history and past.

i still love all my friends, really. HAHA.

back to other stuffs, i tink i must be crazy today. cos i actualli went jogging at 2 P.M in the stadium this afternoon. and i'm the onli one jogging ard the stadium while others are buying 4D -________________-" haha.

ok doks tt's all for so far! i gotta go do some readings before i get to bed. bye peeps.

beeep. i'm damn sian now so i decided to blog.
):
i feel realli restless studying at home. i tink i love my bed too much.
hai. mayb i shall stop being so cheapo and start gg out to study.

neways, og outing last night. and we celebrated yenmei's 20th.


i tink the mini donuts are so cute and tasty! <3

as i'm studying history, my mind started to drift away.
like into my own wonderland.
i cant wait for 5th dec to come. i wan it to be over soon.
no idea why this is only my first sem but i feel sian enuff alr.

so many things to do in dec. still wondering if i shld find a job and start working. but tt's damn sad cos i couldn't have enuff time to do the things i wan to do. yet on the other hand, i tink i need $. loads of them. HAHA.
rah. shall see hw it goes.
i tink i needa go exercise soon.
i hate the flabby me.
):

beeeps.
damn shagged now. ): feeel sooooo sleepy but yet i needa wake up and jiayou real soon to get to my books!

yest was good.
went out of my hse so early yest to catch the dimsum lunch buffet at 11.30 at dragon gate.
the food was okay. was so tired cos i starve myself like crazy since dinner time the day before and refused to eat cos i'm damn cheapo and wan to eat AS MUCH AS I CAN.
almost fainted on the way there. lol.
and yups, haha i love sitting there toking abt NO CONTENT stuffs w the girls.
and we even did a "yum seng" for the SINGLES!
spinsters always.
okay CHOY. shldn't curse myself and all of us.

and sad me and jp got to go back to nus after that to STUDY. while the others happily went off to go shopping.
HATE THEM.
but studying in sch was quite productive. thou we onli stayed for ard 4+ hrs and had a hard time finding a socket, i still did some of my work there.
better then rotting and wasting my time at home. (:

and i was a happy girl yest cos my long missed beloved rani finally called me.
like after a billion years. miss her voice damn much and i bet she miss mine too.
we toked and toked until i was almost half dead at night.

last but not least, i hate my new mattress, i hate facebook, i hate my books.
HAHA.
i just couldn't slp w my "hard as a rock mattress" la. :'(
and have been having sleepless nights for the past few days. SOBBBBBBBB. HELP!
and i still didn't figure out how to use facebook (more correctly, didn't borther to figure tt out)
i guess for the books part, no explainations needed.

uh. this entry is so full of hatred. haha.

oh and btw, jp and rani have been telling me how emo my msn nick and my blog have beeen. OMG.
nah nah nah, seriously, I'M NOT EMO LA K.
haha.

rah. og outing ltr and my sis have been pestering me to acc her to go shopping for her dress ltr.
shucks. i need have more time.
GOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOGOG.

i wanted so badly to find a sad pic of me and post it put.
but i couldnt find any.
or probably i did but decided that they're too ugly and hideous for me to post it up.

neways, I AM SIAN SIAN SIAN.
somebody pls smack me i've been slacking for 3 consecutive days and been in a bad mood to do work today.
like i just stare at my books and my mind started to drift away.
:(((((((((((((((((((((((((
SOB.

wanna rant a bit. i don like it. don like it don like it.
luckily i'm finally gg back to school again tml.
*feels like v long nvr go to sch alr. i don even noe which day of the week it is now.
urghs. i wanna exams to finish quick.

on a whee bit happier note, were toking abt hol plans w my family.
i hope for a lil trip. even to KL or wad so ever.
and tt reminds me SAVE SAVE SAVE $. mayb i shld find a job for this hol and earn some money.
and i hate rachlee, she's always winning 4d.
she it seems like everytime she buy 4d she'll win it.
I'M JEALOUS.

this is not getting anywher.
last but not least, i've signed up for facebook. but i hate it.
so chim i don even noe how to use. kind of feel like deleting it away or sth. LOL

ok. tml will be a better day (at least i hope)
BYE LOVELIES.

BEEEEPPPP.
i kind of hate myself today ))):
LOL.
meet tina early in the morn today and we set off to town for our "surplise" HAHA.
in the end we crapped and luff and be bimbotic all the way until we failed to get our balloons.
thn we met chiayin for lunch at ajisen during her lunch hr.
HAPPY BURFFFFFYYYY CHEW MEIS! :D

and we forced her to be touched and surprised at our lil daisy (and pathetic one stalk of daisy) and orea cheesecake from swiss bake.


hehe. i <3 din daisy! and it's PINKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!



oreocheeeseeeeecakeeeeeeeee!

HAPPY 19TH! :D

and after that, tina ended up skipping her lecture and wnet shopping w me. HAHA.
we both hated ourselves.
and we ended up spending more then 100 bucks today.
OMG. kill me pleaseeeeeeee. i'm left w $90 for the rest of the month. SOBBBBBBBBB.
but still, i'm a happy girl cos we bought loads of cheapo stuffs! AUNTIES FOREVERRRRR.
stocked up on bodyshop body scrub cos it's on 40%, and bought this loive essence thinggy, and shorts from cotton on for $15. YAY i love cotton on cheapo shorts lo.

the aftermath of shopping is tt my legs are so "suannnnnnn" x 100 now. -_______-"
kind of useless cos i hasn't been shopping for a long time and my stamina for shopping is bad.
we ended up sitting at some random bench to people watch.

i tink i need to go exercising some. hate the flabby me :S!
and i wanna go jogging jogging and jogging till i become radiant radiant and more radiant.
HAHA.
neeeeeeeee. i decided i shld stop planning events and stop gg out.
pple are like asking me "eh i tot ur exams coming soon why are u like so free."
ok. gonna stay home, mug, munch on white bread and plain water soon. SOON.

i'm such a Loser today. sob.

i hate my table laaaaaaaa. i was searching for some stuffs in my drawer just now and i realised it's FULL OF ANTS.
made me so PMS. )))))): YUCKS.
and i didn't dare to do anything and just close it back.

study plan today is a FAILURE. i was slacking my whole day away blasting music in my room and online shopping -________-"

on a funny note, was checking out David and Goliath webbie just now. and omgomgomg, their little Miss and Mr Tees are DAMN CUTE >_<
there's "Miss PMS" omg i feel like buying the Miss PMS tee la. like totally suit my mood today.
There's "Miss Bitch" and there's even "Miss boobjob" DAMN CUTE! hehe.
and guess wad, there's even "Mr Masturbate" like, HAHAHAHAHAHAH LOL CAN. so funny. i'm thinking who will dare to wear it out. MR MASTURBATE!!! omg.

okay. a good series of fun things to look forward too. i tink i need a lil break for a while.
"surplise" tml, dimsum buffet for sat, og outing on sun! (:
and hai, EXAMS IN 3 WEEKS TIME. SOMEBODY HELP ME AND PULL ME UPPPPPPPPPP.

yo. kicking alive right here. HAHA.
Pardon me for my emo-ness. i wasn't tt emo most of the time u see. :D

neways, my 4 day week turned into a 2 day week for last week and this week as well. and for next week, it'll be 4 day week turn 1 day week.
haha. my self proclaimed holiday is cool.
and this morn, the exericse swimming suntannings date w suanteng and xiao tee turned out to b -_______-" FAILURE. yest night we're still so super enthus abt exercising and swimming and getting the flabby-ness away. but the rain spoilt everything. ))):
but hehe i was secretly kind of happy. cos i was lazing in bed until 10 this morn. HOHO.

and then i went to eat my brunch with ah bu and went "shopping" in houg mall. bought some cushion covers for the cny. YAY. i hope time flies quite and cny come quick.
it sounded damn stupid when my exams are in 3 weeks time, i feel like i'm in a holiday mood now. shucks...... holiday mood?!?! omg.

but nonetheless, i'm hardworkingly doing my history revision now ok :D yay! i kind of think history rocks a whee bits.

I don't need a man to make it happen
I get off being free
I don't need a man to make me feel good
I get off doing my thing
I don't need a ring around my finger
To make me feel complete
So let me break it down
I can get off when you ain't around
Oh!

don't need a
I don't need a man, I don't
I don't need a man
I'll get me through
'Cause I know I'm fine
I feel brand new

I don't need a
I don't need a man, I don't
I don't need a man
I'll make it through
'Cause I know I'm fine
Without you!

and YUPP, we sure DON NEED A MAN. ((((((((((((((((:
GIRLS POWER ALL THE WAYYYYYYYYYYYY.

ohya, and i feel like changing my blog to livejournal. i tink it's damn cool and i wan to b cool too. HAH.
but then again, it's damn chimmmmm leh. don noe how to use it :( shall wait for after the exams where i have all the time in the world so tt tina can teach me on tt.

wohoo. tuesday today. GELAREEEEEEEEEE??????

awwwwwwwwwwssssss. i miss my friends like alotalot i tink. hai. sobs.

last but not least, FIGHT ON TOHKAIWEI!

Today was one of those emo days, and i started to pull out my diary and pen down again.

Too much running through my mind and i didn't noe wher to start. i guess i see too much of things from the perfect side tt i neglected the dark areas behind them.
i alwaes tot that things would be happily every after.
but come again, mayb there wouldn't be any happily-every-afters afterall.

i couldn't help much and didn't noe wad to say either.
but nonethless, i tot it was okay to fall.
to fall and pick yourself up,
learn from it and move on again like never before.

while i'm just left being on the same spot years after years.

i tink, i just didn't noe how it would be like.
and this could probably be a blessing in disguise.
Maybe. yupp, maybe.

peek-a-boooo!
today's a study-slacking day.
onli have econs lect for the day so i decided to pon school.
end up gg to see the doc for the second time this week. but after a few dose of the medicine, my sexy manly voice is indeed going away (: HENG uh. my mum even told me tt "mayb ur voice break alr." -__________-"

so i was quite happy to stay at home and all i did today was eat, study, sleep, eat study, sleep, and study, eat and sleep.
i alr took 3 x 1 hr naps today le. kind of incredibleeeeeee.
but it's reali quite cosy to stay at home to eat and study and sleep. HOHO. and i reali love my cosy bed.
i love my pillow, my hellokitty lavender pillow, my "psuedo hubby", my comforter.

yadayada.
DIM SUM BUFFET LUNCH TML. i cant wait to eat eat eat! :D

this isn't anything much but still, i kind of secretly happy the way some thing did happen when u least expected them too.

(: i'm happy abt things they way they are now.